Hope leaves

I feel distant from reality, everything to me is at times a big movement, people pass me by,without registering,meaningless..... A movement of everything that just keeps moving, and motions within the things that are moving are triggers to the emotions which it presents, so I tend to make things more intense, or bring out things that you may not see, or do extreme expressions so I can feel what Im bringing out, because sometimes I feel as if I connect to another world that consists nothing of this world, as in beyond emotions, and physical existence,beyond pain, and beyond love,beyond betrayal and beyond Redemption. I think its nirvana, and when I connect , I intensify it by the things that I do. I connect ,so deeply that I find myself not feeling a part of this world as me,but a thousand frequencies,one, with nothing but everything.........lost within the realms of reality and Psychosis...,the divide vanishing.......Again.....this might sound Hypocritic to you guys, but its what I feel within......and to anyone who knows me,its transparent.

MiNd GaMEs

Beat down, to a crimson hue,

Broken, to the core,

Logic defies my state of mind,

A poisoned blood, no more.

I longed for thee, a million times,

I longed, for sacrifice.

I longed for years, forever now,

I longed ,

for paradise.

Never meant to be,

upon my soul,

A scar, it deeply bled.....

A love lost now, forever gone,

Forever, laid to rest.

I scream out loud, in my sleep...

I scream, to keep you safe.

The journey upon a painted night,

upon, a painted hate.

I Miss You.